clear vision

In looking back on my life, there are a lot things that just happened.  What I mean is that I really didn’t plan where I was going, but was more or less making it up as I went along.  Now in some cases this is good.  I think everyone needs to be open to what life sends their way, and you can’t really plan for everything.  But, on the other hand I think that I’ve probably wasted a lot of time on things that were not really important and simply did not move me forward in my life.  I used to think that maybe it was lack of discipline, but for those of you that know me, once I set my mind to something, I have tremendous tenacity.  While some I can attribute to lack of organization, I believe it really comes down to this:

I didn’t know where I was going.

Truly.  I have really had no overriding goal in my life.  I’ve had some minor ones that have certainly increased the quality of my life (getting back in shape, learning how to sing, etc.).  But I think that I have been just like Alice and the Cheshire Cat:

Alice speaks to Cheshire Cat

‘Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’ That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the Cat. ‘I don’t much care where—-’ said Alice. ‘Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,’ said the Cat. ‘—-so long as I get somewhere,’ Alice added as an explanation. ‘Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the Cat, ‘if you only walk enough.’

Because I no particular goal, one job was pretty much the same as the next – just something to do in order to pay the bills.

But not anymore.  Once I got canned from the crappy soul sucking government job, I’ve found a new feeling of entrepreneurship and motivation.  I’m still deciding where I want to go, although you’d think by this time in my life I’d know.  But it’s interesting how once you change your outlook how you see opportunities all around.  Now I’m finding it difficult to decide which direction to take because of lots of good options.

But once I do decide, you know I’ll be in it 100% – because I’ll know where I’m going.